replaced..

Today was an amazing day! Spent it with my cousin and aunty by the pool and at the beach. My cousin and I talk a lot about boys. She currently has a boyfriend so that's who she refers to. I know so much about this boy I have never met. What I wonder is.. who do I refer to? who should I refer to? I don't even know. Corey? Cameron? Mitch?

Today I also found out that my sister, Rachel, has stolen my spot on the state Futsal team. Futsal is my life. She told the coach as I was representing my country, I would be too busy to represent the state. yup, that's how she took my spot. I am beyond disappointed. Those girls are my life. I have Captained that team for so many tournaments and then.. nothing! I could literally cry! but its too late to regain my spot for this tournament.. and maybe they wont have me back.. and that just kills me.
You know the feeling of losing something you cant live without? that's the feeling I have every time I think of it. It doesn't help that the girls keep messaging me asking why I ditched them and that they just hoped I was going. That's what makes it 100 times worse.

xo She, who shall not be named